More AFC thinking…
HBAmerican have texted me all day. She’s calling me tomorrow to set up the day4.
She’s kind of growing quite fast on me. Luckily (?!?) she’ll be gone from here sooner, rather than later (don’t know if i like that really)… and until then she’ll be a likely open relationship, she’s had them before she told me – though… i think she’s kind of falling for me. I am so far from wanting a LTR right now, if it’s not open i.e., but still!… she just digs straight through some weak spots of mine… and i hate the feeling that i want to see her. Mentally i’m probably not strong enough for this kind of ‘powers’ yet… haha. But i’ll get there… i’ll get there. No need to worry. I’ve also made it perfectly clear for her that i don’t want a relationship for ages… but if she gets to me – she knows that’s just words w/o much meaning… Damn – I’m getting depressed over the fact that i like a girl that likes me. Now THAT’S a first!
All i need right now is to get stoned and fall alseep… Fast asleep.
